I would like to begin this letter with a warning. Lately, I became more and more overwhelmed by the incredible attention to us our father, the Abba of Jesus, brings to every moment of our lives. Who know me already longer those of you, know how this love has not only radically my theology but also my life and my relationship to the head. The Bible took on greater dimensions and the absolute joy of being accepted was sometimes for days- or weeks in huge waves over me. It all started to make sense at once. The main result is, I am learning to live increasingly out of my heart and my scissors very little about religious practices. If someone reading this letter, prefers an honest life in the light of the spiritual appearances, so it is better to stop here, to the one who is willing naked and without fig leaves to stand before our Papa.
It is not my intention to contact anyone with this letter on the toes or provoke, and even though I'm sure, that my word most likely in some circles twisted and used against me here to give me all kinds of wrong motivations to push under, I hope so, that the majority of our readers are my heart hear behind these words. My intention behind this letter is reconciliation and that readers can learn Abbas overwhelming love personally for himself and his kindness and acceptance safe in the knowledge. But I also like to take a few negative reactions in buying, knowing, that happens to other people far worse.
As I said, this is an apology letter. The longer I'm in this journey into the Father's love traveling, the more is aware of what Jesus has set us free. And by that I mean not only the obvious distractions of our society, but also cheap substitute drug of Religon, which makes us believe, we were in contact with a God, which is nothing more than a projection of our fears and our guilt in truth - for which we have enough evidence based out of context scriptures cracked, bad theology, Find and revamped testimonies of superstition. How different is the Abba of Jesus! And I speak from personal experience.
Sehr oft lernen wir über diesen falschen Gott von den ersten Autoritätspersonen in unserem Leben kennen – consciously or unconsciously, more often by their deeds than by their words. From our parents we may get a god mediated, whose disappointment with our childish behavior was reflected on their faces. Later, we identify that God might with the pedantic demands of our teachers at school. In the community we often learn to know a God of constantly complaining about our lack of participation in the worship and prayer meeting, a God whose main aim is, that the seats or pews fill on Sunday and we can never make it right.
As teenagers, we notice, dass dieser Gott eine regelrechte Obsession in Bezug auf Sexualität, Alcohol, Taste in music and the like has developed. And after all these years of indoctrination we might finally notice how all the authority figures in our lives who used to God to keep us in check. The process of forgiveness begins then hopefully after a period of absolute disillusionment, after we notice has led as the aforementioned religious indoctrination, dass unsere Herzen von Kindheit an Gott mit Angst und Kontrolle assoziert haben.
Like so many other, I too have experienced this and the brokenness and trauma I experienced in my younger years, made an ideal destination for religious fanaticism from me - so I was looking for my identity and my value in religious activities. And I do not mean only church attendance and Bible study, but otherwise good things, Like Prayer, the exercise of spiritual gifts, Intercession and fasting. To this day there are people who remember me from back then and have labeled me as extremist. To tell the truth, I took seriously what was just taught me. And because I wanted at all costs acceptance of God, I perceived by the example of my authority figures, I did get everything exactly this.
The truth is, I drifted further and further away from what I longed deep in my heart. And as a result I became more and more like the God whose increasingly difficult to be fulfilled claims nearly drove me insane. But instead of recognizing this, involviert ich mich in sogenannter geistlicher Kriegsführung um meine Probleme nach außen zu projezieren. Because obviously worried me a bit, trying to rob me of my faith. More Bible Study, Spiritual welfare, Deliverance, more penance, more prayer meetings and intertwining of spiritual literature - to no avail. To be precise, all these things were nothing more than the result of a religious dependence me in front of real relationships with my dad, Jesus, the Holy Spirit and others abschirmte.Traurigerweise some dependencies are in religious circles more accepted than others and so it took a while until I came to the hopper.
After a spiritual breakdown / breakthrough introduced me to Jesus and His my Abba ago - and nothing more would be the same. Everything has changed in recent years and there is no turning back. As a result, I am aware, that I have misrepräsentiert our Father's heart - before, during and after my religious addiction - and it probably still do.
And that's why I want to apologize in public at any I've ever given a false image of God or I hurt due to my own troubled image of God. Stellvertretend möchte ich mich auch bei all denen entschuldigen die von uns, die wir behauptet haben Gott zu kennen, an image of God got taught not to the God and Father of Jesus Christ entspricht.Ich apologize that I have a narcissistic God gives, is beschäfttig more with his own honor than with the welfare of its creation. A God of our lives ruined, Sparked diseases and tragedies, Relationships and destroyed families and friendships auseinandereißt to get our sole attention.
And I apologize, ever having proclaimed and lived a God, it can not wait for this planet – the truth is just waiting for the revealing of the sons of God, if the kingdom and the will Abbas manifested here on earth as in heaven - auszuöschen. I apologize, that I have ever witnessed a God, which is so angry with us, that he had to leave out his anger on his son to not ban us all from his presence must, which is so disgusted with us, that he can not even look at us, unless we hide behind our elder brother. Ich entschuldige mich für einen Gott der Ungläubige oder Andersgläubige als Bürger zweiter Klasse ansieht und der nicht warten kann seinen ‚gerechten Zorn‘ pour over them. And, I apologize that we have pressed this world in our ignorance for all the false images of God. This is not the God of the Bible. This is not the Abba of Jesus.
I'm sincerely sorry. And whoever you are, you are loved. More than you could imagine in your wildest dreams. You are accepted, and I bid you welcome. Willommen in der Familie!
(Note: Florian Berndt is one of the founders of Fatherheart Ministries Germany, a group of German and English-speaking Christians who were infected by the revelation of the Father. Fatherheart Ministries Germany is part of the Fatherheart World Netzwerkes.)